That's mine, thank you.

Fake Monday things…
  • I have had two really good body image days. Rarely do these things happen back to back. I think this means I’ve been treating my body kindly. For the time being, I’ve found some sort of balance. Riding it as long as it lasts.
  • Speaking of treating my body kindly: 5n5 update. 5.5lb or 3% total loss. Not exactly 5% loss, but nonetheless a total win for me. Maybe another 4lbs in September? Let’s hope so. 
  • I’ve been feeling hyper vulnerable lately and I’m not 100% certain why. Work life, social life, dating life. Just all of it. Please go away, Self Doubt. I do not like you. 
  • Shoulders/back things plus 4 tough treadmill miles. I felt super dehydrated during this run and it made things less than fun. 70 oz of water prior to the run was not enough. Drink more water, Ryan. Guzzle, guzzle, guzzle. 
  • Proof that cats aren’t graceful: Marley the Cat ran full speed into my bedroom door as I was trying to shut it. Even my cat is a spaz. Like owner, like kitty cat. Is that a thing?

Tomorrow promises to be pretty awesome. Morning run (if I type it, it will be true, right?), lots of interaction with my lovely teachers, and someone has purchased tickets to see Jason Mraz at Winspear Opera House. I’m in charge of picking a place for dinner…I should probably go do that.

Summer To-Do List Recap Part 2: 

  • Search for a peach lipstick. "Coral" is in the title, so maybe its too pink to be a peach, but its the closest I’ve gotten. Good summer shade though. 
  • Decorate a flask. I bought a flask. Working on this still. 
  • Get my next tattoo. Got this done just under the wire. After bugging the artist for a while, I decided on a claddagh (I’m part Irish and my grandma once bought me a claddagh ring on a trip to the Thousand Islands). Inside the heart of the claddagh there are the outlines of Illinois, New York, and Texas. Mom is from Illinois, Dad was from New York, and we live in Texas. For me, it celebrates and memorializes the family members I’ve lost and still have. I love it. 
  • Go to the farmers market. Did this a whole bunch actually. <3
  • Play True American? Nope. Didn’t happen. ONE DAY. 
  • Watch every version of Pride & Prejudice available (currently Colin Firth Pride & Prejudice, Kiera Knightley Pride & Prejudice, Pride & Prejudice 1980 version, Lizzie Bennet Diaries, bridget jones diary). In order of the pictures - 1980 miniseries version (boooo), Mogge and I simultaneously Facetimed and watched Bridget Jones’ Diary together, Lizzie Bennet Diaries (so much love for that web series…sooooooo good), Colin Firth version of P&P (much swoon), Kiera Knightley (not everyone loves this one, but I find it a good Hollywood-ized version).
  • Eat brunch somewhere. Sundown at Granada with someone who has only more recently become a friend. Food was good. Lots of coffee, mimosas, water, and good conversation. I should brunch more. 
  •  Go somewhere for each letter in the word SUMMER. Don’t really have pictures for any of these. This one was TOUGH so, I’ll be honest, I just kind of made shit up. S (Stanley’s BBQ) U (nothing) M (Missouri) M (nothing) E (nothing) R (Rachel’s pool - totally counts?). 
  • Bonus: Next time you’re with Mogge, learn Single Ladies choreography and handshake from The Parent Trap. Sadly didn’t see my bestie this summer. We have plans for SXSW Film in March though!!!!!

This Summer To-Do List was FUN. So fun, in fact, I’m contemplating creating a Fall To-Do List. It pushed me to do new things, try harder, step out of my comfort zone, and just experience stuff.

10/10 would do again. 

Summer To-Do List Recap Part 1: 

  1. Make the first move. No picture for this one, but I did it. Although I’ll add that the purpose of this was to get make myself be vulnerable and really put myself out there. Done and done. 
  2. Take a road trip to eat somewhere new. Sister and I went to Tyler, hiked a couple of miles and then hit up Stanley’s. We split the four-meat plate. HEAVENLY. Stanley’s chopped brisket remains one of the best things I’ve ever put in my mouth. 
  3. Join Twitter. No picture, but we can be friends! Find me: KeserBlazer
  4. Watch the sunrise over the lake. I set my alarm to do this every day during Labor Day weekend and slept through each alarm. I have become more of a morning runner though, and that, for me, counts for something. 
  5. Wear a two-piece. This didn’t happen. I bought a bikini. I wore said bikini once, but I kept my cover up on the whole time. Still working on it. 
  6. Purchase a cheap-as-hell ukulele and learn a little ditty. No picture. Maybe one day I’ll get brave enough to post a video. Currently, I’ve learned Jason Mraz’s I’m Yours and Ingrid Michaelson’s You and I. Working on Miley’s We Can’t Stop and HAVE TO learn What Are You Doing New Year’s.
  7. Learn how to cut a watermelon. Why did I wait so long to learn how to do this? It was so easy and yielded delicious results. 
  8. Pick a summer anthem. Sia - Chandelier. 
  9. Get eyebrows threaded. I did this with my sister the afternoon we got back from doing #1. No picture. Interesting experience. Might do it again, might not. The pain lasts longer than waxing, but its better for your skin, so there’s that. For now, I go back to plucking. They did a great job of cleaning up my brows though. 
  10. Make sweet potato bagels. I should have let these rise a bit longer, but they were pretty good. Didn’t blow my mind, but I’m not the greatest of bakers (although I enjoy it). 
  11. Make a new cocktail. I tried a Manhattan and Boulevardier. Neither really my thing. Whiskeyginger4lyfe. 
  12. Make a piece of art for your abode. I ended up with the “J’Adore Tacos” thing and the Starry Night/Dallas skyline thing I did at a paint and wine thing. I don’t love either, but the skyline is growing on me. I’ve hung it up in my office so I’m not sure if it counts art for my “abode.” 
  13. Send three pieces of snail mail. Mogge, Carla, and Shannon. All college friends. All friends for life. Also sent a snail mail birthday card to my coworker. 
  14. Reading challenge? I flat never made one, but I continue to try to read at least 15 minutes every night so I feel like this one is a win.
  15. Complete a home improvement project (storage project). No picture - I hung up shelves in my bathroom. Very pleased with the results (as long as you don’t look too closely). I’m also working on a magnetic spice board. Very excited about that one. 
  16. Do a homemade hair mask. Coconut oil and honey mixture. Underwhelming results, but my hair was a tad bit softer. If I do it again, I’ll sleep in it. 

See next post for all the other things on my to-do list!

Sorry, y’all. Two awkward pictures of my face to show you my blue eyeliner (inspired by alliegets). Her blue eyeliner has been on my mind since she posted about it forever ago. It was an impulse buy at Target, but I’m so glad I got it. I really didn’t think I’d like it all that much (because Allie is gorgeous and has serious eyeliner game), but I’m such a fan! For the record - she still wore it better. 

This Labor Day has been very quiet and very awesome. I did the following: 

  • Assembled some goodies for snail mail. 
  • Cofffffeeee. 
  • 3 miles, arms and abs. 
  • Treated myself to a movie - Boyhood. Its long, but REALLY good. Highly, highly recommend it! 
  • Drove with the windows down, music up, and sang along rather poorly. 

Unrelated: the little tiny booty pop I had acquired with squats and all the leg stuffs seems to be going away with the running. If anyone has any suggestions about how to keep this/workout my legs while still keeping my legs fresh for running, I’m all ears.

Texas will likely see summer temperatures for another month, but today officially marks the end of summer so except a two-parter post to recap my Summer To-Do List. It likely won’t be all that exciting, but I want to post it for posterity. 

A Sunday in foods…

Food prep: 

  • Melissa’s Chili Cornbread Skillet adding Hatch chiles in the cornbread, as she suggested. I tested this. SO GOOD. 
  • Crockpot Chicken Tikka Masala. Not even sure this counts as cooking since its a jar of sauce and chicken. As such, its not the most delicious thing in my fridge/freezer (see above). 

In other food news:

  • I’ve been craving a burger so I picked up one of those pre-made patties in the meat section at Kroger. They had mixed Hatch chiles and (I think) tiny cubes of cheese into the patty. After cooking it, I pared it down a bit as it was SO big and then topped it with a spoonful of guacamole on a whole wheat bun. Proof that eating at home can be more delicious than eating out. 
  • I got bored so I made Blueberry Hand Pies. I made circular ones. They look like ugly blueberry ravioli, but they’re quite delicious! I must work on my craftmanship the next time I make them. 

Man, I love food. 

#19 on my Summer To-Do List - Get a new tattoo.

My siblings and I were all trying to agree on something because we wanted to do something to remember both my grandmother we lost last summer and my grandpa who died two months ago. 

Agreeing was tough. Especially since we were never in the same place altogether to discuss the options and none of us had a really clear vision of what we wanted.

I worked with James at Elm Street Tattoo. Oh lawd, this guy was patient with me. I don’t have the most artistic eye so I went in with the only idea the three of us had agreed on - state outlines to signify where my mom and her family are from (Illinois), my dad and his family (New York), and that we were all settled in Texas. 

After a couple of ideas, we decided on a claddagh with the three state outlines in the heart.

We’re part Irish and my grandma once bought me a claddagh ring and explained its meaning to me on a trip to the Thousand Islands.

All in all, I am very pleased. Each piece of it has special significance to me. 

Other notes about the tattoo: 

  • My tattoo is on my ribs/side. 
  • I’ve heard tattoos on the ribs REALLY hurt. And yeah, it hurt, but it wasn’t awful. For me, the pain was worse afterwards. During, it was all bearable. After…oy. Rough, y’all. Rough. 
  • Do not wear a dress to get a tattoo when said tattoo is going on your side. In my defense, I thought I would just talk to someone today about a tattoo and not actually get to go through the whole process. I was mistaken. 
  • Related: I’m fairly certain that Oliver Peck (of Ink’D fame) saw my boob as the little paper thing they had me tape to my chest came undone. Oops.
  • I was all kinds of exposed on the table. At one point, I was trying to cover myself up, but I just gave up. Yeah, I’ve got extra skin, stretch marks, and my body is far from perfect (even after losing more than 100lbs). Oh well. The world will go on. It was definitely an exercise in Get-The-Fuck-Over-Yourself.
  • I’m undecided whether I’ll share a picture on social media or not. It feels like a no-brainer, in some ways - hey, you posted about it, now post a visual! But, then again, its something I did for me AND its in just a spot that its tough to get a shot without some side boob action. Maybe I’ll feel differently as it starts to heal. We’ll see. 
All the nerves.

All the nerves.

Saturday Six
  1. Higdon training plan called for 5 miles this weekend, but since I feel like I’m finding my running legs again, I felt the need to do 8 miles (plan calls for 9 miles next weekend). 
  2. I ran my 8 miles on the treadmill last night. Its not ideal but I can’t even tell you how much more I look forward to my run and my whole weekend when I just get it out of the way. 
  3. Walked 2.5 miles with some lovely people this morning to shake my legs out. Then I foam rolled like a b. My legs are already so sore that I’m afraid what its going to feel like when the mileage really goes up. Yikes.
  4. I ate like an asshole yesterday, y’all. There were entirely too many free sweets being handed to me and I, like a fool, accepted them all. 
  5. However, scale till says I’m down 3.5lbs from Tuesday’s weigh in. 
  6. I have to go into school for a tiny bit today, but other than that have no plans currently. What should I do?! Movie? Tattoo consult? Eep.
Thursday rest day things: 
I was compared to a &#8220;holiday ham&#8221; today. I was told by my friend that this was a compliment, but I&#8217;m still not clear what it means. 
There was a bit of a shake up at admin today. It might make teachers uneasy for such a change so early in the year, but, honestly, I just feel relieved. My new bosses have been such a source of stress for me, but that will no longer be an issue. 
However, I am feeling really guilty for being so relieved that two people lost their jobs. They are humans, after all, even if they weren&#8217;t the best at their jobs. 
It was a rest day, but I wanted to get some lifting in so to the gym I went. 
Tall Gym Guy (remember him?) was there. Haven&#8217;t seen him much lately. When I have seen him, I didn&#8217;t seek him out because 1) I felt like an idiot for thinking he might be hitting on me and 2) he told me he felt like an idiot the last time we spoke and he called me by the wrong name. Idiots. Either way, we broke the ice today. He told me he liked my look (I think because I left my bangs down and was wearing my glasses which almost never happens), but that the shirt completed it. We chatted about the weather (riveting) and marathon training, too. Maybe I&#8217;ll stop being awkward now (hahahahaha&#8230;doubtful). 
I am an adult, but my most recent Instagram post might suggest otherwise. 
In case you didn&#8217;t know, tomorrow is Friday and THREE-DAY WEEKEND. 

Thursday rest day things: 

  • I was compared to a “holiday ham” today. I was told by my friend that this was a compliment, but I’m still not clear what it means. 
  • There was a bit of a shake up at admin today. It might make teachers uneasy for such a change so early in the year, but, honestly, I just feel relieved. My new bosses have been such a source of stress for me, but that will no longer be an issue. 
  • However, I am feeling really guilty for being so relieved that two people lost their jobs. They are humans, after all, even if they weren’t the best at their jobs. 
  • It was a rest day, but I wanted to get some lifting in so to the gym I went. 
  • Tall Gym Guy (remember him?) was there. Haven’t seen him much lately. When I have seen him, I didn’t seek him out because 1) I felt like an idiot for thinking he might be hitting on me and 2) he told me he felt like an idiot the last time we spoke and he called me by the wrong name. Idiots. Either way, we broke the ice today. He told me he liked my look (I think because I left my bangs down and was wearing my glasses which almost never happens), but that the shirt completed it. We chatted about the weather (riveting) and marathon training, too. Maybe I’ll stop being awkward now (hahahahaha…doubtful). 
  • I am an adult, but my most recent Instagram post might suggest otherwise. 

In case you didn’t know, tomorrow is Friday and THREE-DAY WEEKEND. 

  • Waking up to sweet text messages makes getting out of bed so early a little bit easier.
  • NEGATIVE SPLITS AND THREE SPEEDY MILES. It was balls hot outside even at 5:30 this morning. The air was so thick. So pleased with this run though. Midweek miles all done!!!!!!!!!!! 
  • The mosquitos though. They got me good this morning. 
  • My Wednesday evening plans fell through so I find myself with a lot of time on my hands…what should I do? I’ve straightened my apartment, eaten dinner, done dishes, practiced the ukelele, and done a load of laundry and its not even 7 p.m. If you want to ask me stuff to keep me entertained, I wouldn’t hate you. 

P.S. My desk is finally set up and it might be nerdier than yours. All objects pictured courtesy of The BFF.